I think having a gf again would fix me. or that'd be the hope anyways.
I think I'm okay gf material, four wolves who will draw our sonas being cute together. all I ask is to be loved, to hang out on a not infrequent basis and to not be ignored for several days in a row cause that's not what a good girlfriend would do.
I've been wondering if we're just too unapproachable/threatening or too boring or too depressed. it feels like very few people ever approach us regularly wanting to talk (I can think of only one friends tbh), and some never have. the depression certainly doesn't help with anything but I tried to be good and always available even on bad days. can't say the same for my ex. I don't feel bad about that relationship anymore but I'm still in disbelief that despite me trying my best to remain friends afterwards, she goes and dumps on Ashley, who wasn't her girlfriend, then never checked up on us again. idk if I'll ever get closure on that one, still don't feel like messaging her and it's been 3 months.