its crazy how much my trauma from like. being bullied and kinda just having my feelings neglected for so much of my life seeps into everything i do. like thats just been a permanent part of who i am at this point. ive started to notice it a lot more and im starting to feel as if i'm falling apart a lot more as well. i'm not sure how much longer i'll be able to hold it all together because just... everything's happening, yknow. it just keeps seeping into my mind that yeah i am kinda fucked up beyond belief. i hope im wording this in a way that makes sense, it just... fuck, this shit sucks
