the more i think about it the more i realize my lack of energy this summer wasn't anything with me, but a combination of "heat making me kinda low energy and exhausted" and "getting hounded by my family twenty four fucking seven to do something and work full time and make a meaning out of my life because they're terrified if i don't because they think im destined to end up like my brother" affecting my mental state and just making me way less inclined to do fucking anything
