The human body can only take so much stimulation and stress before negative health effects start to show. Growing up I had dissociation and derealization as a homegrown coping mechanism as a child because it kept me safe and gave me some distance from the harm I felt. As the world has become more and more like 2008 i'm wondering if putting it up on the shelf was a mistake. There is so much that is required from the average fur to get up, and follow a deep concentrated effort on repeat every day while being kept up to date with an excessive amount of stress.
Being plural makes this doubly complicated.
I have gotten better with self soothing and calming myself down when things get too much but how much is my innermom gonna take? Idk most of this is just a big question mark, but I think we have a lot more exploring to do to find a new healthy way of living without losing your sanity. Fuck ableists and the neurotypical world they enforce. go at your pace and go in love. I'm sorry things are like this but I'm still continuing for the other trans people that live here. I love you all. We are going to get through this we just need to figure out the language of our bodies and our minds... not to end the post corny as hell lmao. It wont be this bad forever and people have a tendency of wanting to continue and wanting to hope. I think thats what makes me the happiest. Hope in the darkest of times.