im just fucking tired. it's exhausting having to acknowledge that i'm a financial burden. i'm a waste of money. i am money that could be going to anything else more useful, but because my disabled ass exists people are stuck trying to take care of me. the government is supposed to be helping my family help me, but they don't. they'd rather advertise for a telecom company that competes with our own crown corporation SaskTel, because "Bell Let's Talk Day" does the exact performative nothingness every corporate skinwalker loves to use to massage their egos and pretend they're doing something without putting in the work.
i can't work. i'm too fucking busy trying to make sure i don't die to be able to work. i shouldn't have to be fucking doing this. i shouldn't have to feel miserable every day i wake up and realize i'm alive and being treated like i'm not worthy of any of it.
and yet. here i am. having to lie to myself and say "maybe it'll get better" because surely people can't be this evil, this ignorant, this sick in the head to be fine letting people like me just wither away and die. and yet, year after year, nothing changes. because people are totally fine letting me die. they can sleep at night while they let it happen, and they sleep peacefully. it sickens me. it sickens me to my damn core that i am somehow the same species as these vile, disgusting robots.
Actually, hang on.
Who even said Autistic people lack empathy anyways? Every autistic person I know who hears about this shit hates that it happens and wants life to improve for me.
Wanna know who doesn't think about lives like mine? Wanna know who doesn't worry about people being left out and falling behind? Wanna know who doesn't feel guilt or regret about destroying the lives of others while advertising themselves as having given a shit?
neurotypical, allistic, abled people.
Who said Autistic people lacked empathy?
neurotypical, allistic, abled people.
