the desire to play modded minecraft versus the annoyance of coming back to new versions of minecraft after not playing for a few months and finding out that a major breaking game update caused another mass extinction of mods and you have to go crawl curseforge and modrinth to find replacements with the same function but a different author and then you discover that yet another different core project used by everyone has had a fork because the former maintainers were transphobic and by the time you process all of this and get everything set up you're so exhausted you don't want to play anymore
