I'm still very much at a point where the thought "oh I'm not a system this is just some kind of pretending, perhaps to fit in with my plural friends" still has some potency, even though there was never a conscious choice to "pretend", but also if we try to "just stop pretending" it doesn't go away?? and so
Based on observations of plural friends, I figured The Plural Experience would include more "randomly switching in out of nowhere and being confused," and I'm fronting so often that like for us 95% of the time I'm fronting.
but also there are these people in my head.
Ceto just pointed out that a singlet who is pretending to be plural would not have the necessity of freaking out upon starting to unfront and frantically grabbing front and going "nope, nope, nope, I'm me," out of existential fear.
That is apparently more of a "plural trying to pretend to be a singlet" sort of a thing, pretty much the opposite.