Just saw some stuff about "killing the old male side" and I understand why a lot of other transwomen approached it like that, but... That's not exactly where I'm at. Part of it is I was never that male to begin with. Even though looked (unfortunately still look, to some degree -_-) physically male as all hell, I never "socially" passed as male from the start, and only provisionally managed to for a brief and miserable period of time in our 20s shortly before transitioning.
But another part of it is that there's a version of masculinity I don't mind one bit, a part I don't mind having a little bit of as part of me.
Setting aside the plural stuff for (perhaps) another post later, lemme dig into something rather important.
trans stuff below, musings on the role of maleness