Hal T. Raccmouse

@HalTRaccmouse

small, but in a big way

he/they

Raccoon/Mouse. 30s/poly/grey ace (Demi?)

Hal T. Raccmouse @HalTRaccmouse6/12/2023, 10:12 PM

Hal T. Raccmouse @HalTRaccmouse

Hal T. Raccmouse @HalTRaccmouse6/12/2023, 9:47 PM

i hate being wildly bad at understanding and explaining why I Feel Bad At This Moment And I Want It To Stop

Hal T. Raccmouse @HalTRaccmouse6/12/2023, 9:55 PM

I am tired of blaming other people for this but I am so sick and confused that I don't know how to describe The Hurt without hurting people

Hal T. Raccmouse @HalTRaccmouse6/12/2023, 10:03 PM

just want one time where saying what I am feeling when I feel this way where it actually makes me feel better or at least not makes anyone confused or hurt by my explanation

Hal T. Raccmouse @HalTRaccmouse6/12/2023, 10:05 PM

Love Having Unexplainable Panic Attacks At Work That Make Others Confused Or Upset

Hal T. Raccmouse @HalTRaccmouse6/12/2023, 10:09 PM

"Talk to your therapist, that's there job!"

sure if I want to pay someone to literally say what every person always tell me: Stop Feeling Bad

Hal T. Raccmouse @HalTRaccmouse6/12/2023, 10:12 PM

I wish I was capable of trust.

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Ry @kangaroo6/12/2023, 10:17 PM

Speaking as a therapist, it would have to be a shit ass therapist to say that to you. This is to say, it’s their job to make it a space to talk about this stuff without the “simply don’t feel and anymore :)” and hopefully understand it in a way that makes things make sense with what you can do, even if it’s not “things are good actually”.

Idk enough about your situation to say “this is how therapy will help you” but there are ways that therapy has helped other people that might help you too.

Hal T. Raccmouse @HalTRaccmouse6/12/2023, 10:33 PM

Every time when I tell any therapist that I am unable to trust anyone, like physically I can't make those connections in my brain, it's usually just confusion (assuming I am explaining badly/lying) or just telling to start trying. I feel those wires have gone very bad and no one wants, or is able, to help.

Ry @kangaroo6/13/2023, 12:00 AM

Ahhhh you’ve tried. Well fuck, that’s a shame, I wouldn’t expect folks to necessarily get your trust issues, but at least I can imagine how it becomes hard to trust people. I think there’s a place for “just try anyway” but that has to be measured and careful, using other ways of establishing safety when the emotional part is crying out. I don’t want to get too deeply into this, bc obvs it’s not my business, but I’m sorry it’s been rough.