InfernoAceington

Consider Arson

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30 something transwoman. Setting your heart aflame.


InfernoAceington
@InfernoAceington

Frustrated with myself. I was getting a drive for self improvement last year. To pick up new things. To push myself to talk to new people. Make new friends. Expand my boundaries. And then I a massive depression episode and it's all gone. I feel listless now. Frustrated that spark is gone. Unable to really get it going again. I want to grow. I want to change. But I'm struggling to get my systems back into place. I just went splat and I'm struggling to pull myself together again. I'm a shadow of the me half a year ago. I'm going to grow again if it kills me.


InfernoAceington
@InfernoAceington

And I feel like my sense of self is gone. Just so much of who I was building up is destroyed. I know depression can wreck you but it's never really been quite this bad. But I also think I hadn't build myself up so much so I never had much to lose between bouts. It went from just lightly running into a wall into a full on crash. Splat goes the Scarlett. Urgh. Hate this.


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