Isis E. Prosser

me as a child: "yay it's winter !!!!"

me as an adult: "please. i haven't seen the sun in weeks. leaving the safety of my bed to brave the cold is unbearable."

looking at reddit threads and seeing people argue doesn't actually answer my questions/concerns, as it turns out

this is just me being really upset at my brain, which i can never convince to retain much of anything or make decisions.

this vent post brought to you by "my brain has been so tired, All The Time, and it's been so difficult to do anything this year".

so, i have difficulty making decisions (thanks brain great job), and due to my anxiety, any sort of i guess... ambiguity or whatever just kind of gets me into a decision freeze that i struggle to escape from.

doesn't matter what topic it is. but i often approach problems with basic "yes or no" questions, and frequently struggle when i either can't find a basic answer, or at least a consensus, or the answer is "yes, but in rare cases [bad thing] can happen". with an anxiety disorder... you can imagine how my brain handles the mention of rare cases.

and then there's also the fear of asking for clarification, because offline i tend to get "that's a silly question, the answer is obvious" with no clarification provided so i kind of... don't ask questions anymore.

i don't know how much of this struggle is just me and how much of it is good information being very difficult to find. feels like it could be both.

still, i'm frustrated about it. thanks for letting me vent, i'll be back to joke posting shortly.

i don't consider the fate of the federation troopers to be a twist or anything, seemed pretty obvious even before samus left her ship that they were doomed, but godsdamn there is just something about walking through the ruins of all their stuff and finding their bodies, and then the ing possessing some of them...

when i first played echoes i actually screamed when i saw the troopers strung up by the splinter drones, rip me.

"they'll eat me. eat."

a simple line but it nonetheless burrowed itself into my consciousness and it just lives there now.

if anyone asks me my favorite prime game i'll generally give the non-answer of "trilogy" because i really enjoy all three as a greater whole, but if i had to choose just one i think echoes beats 1 and corruption because i really dig the creepy eldritch vibe it's got going.

i really, really want to see it get the same "remastered" treatment as 1, even though i know i'm going to react like a small wyrmling when something scary happens.