I think a lot about the people I don't talk to anymore.
In the early Discord days, I sat in a call with someone else in silence for nearly 15 minutes and we both tried to speak up at the same time. She thought my shyness was very cute. She helped me realize what asexuality was, and was always fun to talk to. She seems too busy to want to talk anymore.
Update: last month I texted my old coworker, we didn’t end up talking too much but he seems to be doing very well, so I’m happy about that at least :)
