Every time there's a racism/sexism/transphobia Discourse on here, I am always hyper vigilant of myself and try to think back of like 'oh no did I fuck up oh no' off and on during it.
I know the discourses aren't about me or anything, but I always worry that I'm fucking up somewhere lmao. I suppose being vigilant of that is better than going "no I'm right about everything I've said unless I've actively said otherwise"
Part of this is tied to the anxiety I have had for years of "Am I a good person or do I only act like a good person because that's what you're supposed to do and you want to be seen as a good person and earn the very-real Good Boy Points".