having to write something about you to people you dont know, asking them to let you on their basically public instance of a service you dont REALLY want to use... yeah. that sucks.

i hate talking about myself, what is there even to say? what the f do you want me to write here??? what is fucking relevant here? why are you interested in me? to prevent bad ppl to seek residence on your holy server?

it fucking sucks to have to ask for permission, just to always be rejected and i just fucking hate all this shit. it doesnt make me want to join more, it only tells me there are cops around and i am going to fucking hate it.

so yeah, fuck it. and im not gonna open my own instance because that software fucking sucks. and all the other software also sucks and i hate using software i dont know but what are you going to do? write everything yourself?

at least then SOMETHING would read what i write...

perhaps that is why i like writing software: i can make a pile of pebbles read my ramblings and make it behave in ways that nothing else would.

yeah. i know that's pretty authoritarian of me but it's just a pile of breathing rocks, and nobody else cares about this pile anyways...