i really like my current employers' working atmosphere. but some days, when my alarm rings in the morning i just want to stay in bed, cuddling wifeys cuddly butt. <3
and there is really no technical reason for me to come into the office, i could even install an app and be available over the office tel.no. via my mobilephone. so when i finally do make it out of bed to hit the shower, some days im pretty grumpy already by then and more often than not i take too long enjoying the hot water, which makes me even grumpier about all of this because i know i need to hurry.
i shouldnt have to, i could do my work in the wee hours of the night on my own computer if i wanted to, thanks to vpn and the internet. but it is expected from me to be at the office at some appointed time.
my immediate superior doesnt really care- i think. i hope. we have been friends for a long time and i think he has a similar attitude, as we have discussed this previously and it seems he also struggles with getting out of bed, except perhaps with less rage. where i get flustered, he is levelheaded. i dont think i have ever seen him angry...
anyhow. im not sure my jobs' meaning is 100% aligned with my values, as i cannot 100% tell who is our customers and what do they use our software and machines for, but at least most of the time it seems my contributions to the world have nothing to do with military applications.
but due to this uncertainty i try to avoid thinking too much about how my job aligns with my values. and i try to avoid asking too many questions. you might deride me for this, but i just want to provide for my family so we can live comfortably.
so, when i say fuck money, i mean: i wish i didnt have to pay money to anyone for housing, clothing and nourishment. education and kindergarten are free already, payed for using taxes. medical is covered by insurance, payed for through my job automatically...
i dont want to earn crazy amounts of money. i never wanted that. i dont need money. in fact, i believe if we as a species had decided X0 years ago (lets actually coincide that with the moment the human rights were amended with internet access for shits and giggles) that money actually is the devil and verboten from then on out, the world as a whole would be far better off.
yes we would need to reinvent most of the economy. perhaps some nations would need to be dissolved, merged, maybe all of them, just to have the same intergenerational contract everywhere.
idk...
im just tired of playing this stupid game and i doubt anyone in the world is actually enjoying playing it
deep deep down in e-lon's mind i bet there is a little kiddo who just wants to go to mars and have electric cars everywhere and solar panels on every roof and perhaps he even wants to feed the people.
because we could!
i believe he actually wants to make the world better. or at some point he wanted to. but eventually kiddo-lon will turn bitter from being the clown all the time. or forget he wanted to make the world better, and try to just play the game for the games sake, as nobody likes him, he might as well just insulate himself from anything and live the rest of his sad life being bitter on a private space yacht, so he doesnt have to deal with earthlings anymore.