it's still like. strange when people call me sweet or kind cuz I honestly don't ever really feel like I'd aim those words at myself,,, like I more just feel like I'm a bit of an asshole and not a great or even a good person, really. like I'm not evil or anything, I'm not heartless, but I'm also not really that nice or good in my own mind... so it always takes me by surprise when people call me kind and such
..................realized at the end of typing this that this is a trauma/abuse survivor thing, isn't it
