Kayin

Digitial Demon Girl

Gendermongrel Game Dev who is terminally horny and needs to log off. Creator of IWBTG and Brave Earth: Prologue (In theory).

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It's no secret that I hate The Game Awards. It's the same twitter rant from me every year. Some years are lucky and I mostly manage to ignore it, but a lot of twitter discourse got me thinking...

Now, I'm generally pretty anti-Award Shows in general. Not because I think Awards are bad (I especially love small community awards!), or industries celebrating their own is dumb but because most of them either fall to capitalism or have been cynical cash grabs from the start. Even events that seem like they were rooted in more positive attempts to celebrate accomplishments often fall short.

"I found that the best way to handle [filmmakers] was to hang medals all over them ... If I got them cups and awards, they'd kill themselves to produce what I wanted. That's why the Academy Award was created"

- Louis B. Mayer, founder of AMPAS

I found this quote on wikipedia while reading about the Academy Awards. Even from the get-go, even when the awards were just a private party, the goal was money and control. They could dress it up and disguise it better, but while it doesn't compare to the naked commercialism of The Game Awards, it still sucks. But even sucking it can at least somewhat serve the "purpose" (like okay the purpose is money, but the purpose we pretend they have) of these types of events. Giving people their flowers, hearing from people we don't usually hear from, to elevate, to put faces to the people who make the art we enjoy.

The Game Awards can't even do that. Now, this has been a bad year for The Game Awards in general, between layoffs not being acknowledges, or the Future Class trying to get The Game Awards to acknowledge the Gaza Crisis. Those issues, while important, will change year from year. What likely won't change drastically is the trend. More commercials, more trailers, less time for awards. The Game Awards's DNA being a weird mix of the Spike VGAs (already a money grab shit show) and a new E3 really shines through when it comes to priorities. Companies with thousands of employees must give their thanks in 30 seconds, all so they can run the next trailer. They are not getting their flowers. They are not being celebrated. They are being used as an excuse to run an event. The awards are a formality.

For awhile I felt bad trashing on the awards. I have friends who have won awards and who should be proud of it! In fact, I generally don't take much issue with the winners, but in a weird way that's kind of the point. The Game Awards are telling you what you already know. Bashing the awards doesn't discredit the games who have won because those games don't need the credit. They credit the award. I know Armored Core 6 is the best action game of 2023.

Because the awards are never brave, they can never elevate. Now, an award doesn't have to be brave to be good. Sometimes respecting the obvious good work of others is enough. But with awards being an after thought they're not giving respect, and with the award's prestige never being used to elevate, all that The Game Awards become is a youtube clickbait top 10 list. A blind cash grab, fancied up with money. That if they spend enough money on a set, if people wear suits, if the award is Art Deco enough, their glorified content gruel will have legitimacy. Unfortunately, they're right.

The companies are fine with this farce. It lets them do their own advertising. Most people show up to see the new trailer for the game they already know exists rather than wanting to see the face and hear the voice of the person who composed their favorite soundtrack. Even when faces are shown, it's the most corporately presentable faces. Accepting an award is still marketing. An in-industry friend of mine made a great tweet reply to me basically pointing out that none of this even about people. It's about Brands. The Brands win awards and a face is shown to represent the brand. Only marketable people like Kojima are given much time, because he, in himself, is the commercial. Kojima is a Brand. We don't acknowledge the protests outside, layoffs during record profits, because protesters don't fit the Message we want associated with out Brand.

This isn't about celebrating or appreciating people, this is about making money. We can barely even afford the illusion of caring about people, we can't offer even the slightest sympathy to those we layed off because we only exist if we're useful to the big publishers. Why would they show their trailers in a show that talked about their bad business practices? What would even be the point of having an Award Show then!

The Game Awards blindly benefits from the hard work and passion of the people who make the art we love, stealing the credit to alchemize it into value for companies instead. Humanity and Art are sacrificed for Content, a trade that gamers historically accept readily.

I’m Tired but Will Never Stop Screaming

I saw so many people on twitter saying "I feel like I wasted 3 hours of my life" and to them I ask... why did you watch? Genuinely. Did you feel like you had to? That you'd be missing out? That you have a responsibility as a game enjoyer? You don't. And you don't have to. Even if you care about the news, it'll be on social media in minutes, sometimes even seconds. Is it being connected to the zeitgeist? You gotta ask yourself if that superficial feeling is worth it. It doesn't represent anything real. The fact I saw the Elphelt trailer 45 seconds later than everyone else didn't mean I was unable to participate. You're a free person. You can simply choose not to engage with the cynical bullshit you're told to care about. You will feel FOMO exactly once and then, the next day, realize that it didn't matter.

Maybe you watched it and enjoyed it with your friends. Maybe you had fun hate watching, I don't know, I can't stomach that crap but you do you. I'm not going to be like "You have to boycott The Game Awards!!!" because... it doesn't matter. Even if you could kill it, it'd be replaced by something worse. I can't even convince you all to stop letting yourselves get spoonfed by Nintendo Directs. Like I said, you're a free person. I'll tease you about waking up at early to watch commercials but it's not the end of the world. I'd just like you to genuinely ask yourself why you care? Why you can't just wait? Why you can't just pick out what you want to see when you get to it?

... And if you've been nominated for something, or even won an award... I'm genuinely happy for it. You deserve it. You and your team deserve better. Milk any credibility this gives you as much as you can, but know you deserve more.


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in reply to @Kayin's post:

I think the bigger you get the harder it is to stay honest and useful but like honestly DICE is pretty on the up and up and the IGF and GDC awards have issues (a lot of politics on the back end) they're all waaaay less brazenly commercialized. So you can do it!

YEAAAAH one thing I will say that's interesting about the Oscars (with all its problems still) is that it IS all in industry. I think we have a hard time talking about who awards are for. Like an award of industry respecting industry is cool but once it gets marketed outside the industry things get weird and muddy...

I saw so many people on twitter saying "I feel like I wasted 3 hours of my life" and to them I ask... why did you watch? Genuinely. Did you feel like you had to? That you'd be missing out? That you have a responsibility as a game enjoyer? You don't.

I feel this with so many of these events/shows/streams. Does it ever occur to these people that they can just... turn it off? All the pieces I've read that are critical of Geoff and the show are 100% correct and I agree with them.

I used to work in music with a guy who had won grammies (yes, that grammy) and while he was proud of that and put those front and center in his self-promotion he was a lot more personally satisfied with the awards he got from other musicians. I can't even remember the name of the other awards ceremony now, but it's one where they give each other awards. It makes sense, that's the people who have the most technical ability to evaluate the work.

(Of course, insert Socrates here going "artists have no idea what makes their work good and should not be allowed to talk about it.")

so i think there's an obvious level where people's investment comes from...wanting to have their opinions validated. which i think is kinda sad but it's not really my place to change that. some people just haven't really loved something a ton that was really unpopular/disliked and it shows lol

i do totally agree with you, and i think it's obvious that stuff like this lands with people because it's sold (successfully :/) as an Event. tbh, in this world with so many things competing for people's attention, i get why it works, but for me waiting out of sight and hearing people's complaints and watching the youtube trailers i'm actually interested in (which is very few usually) is about as close as i can stand being to this stuff. i watched one nintendo direct this year bc it was in the middle of my work day and there were weirdly prominent rumors they'd announce something i was hoping for. they did and it was still a great reminder why i don't, haha

also it was much funnier at a later one to wake up, check twitter, and find out less than 5 minutes before they had announced something i was even more excited about

100% this yeah. even as someone who has participated in the game awards one year & got a lot of visibility from it like, it's just a constant race to the bottom with no real lasting effects. i think a lot about how the literal only reason i was allowed to present an award was because celebrity guest aisha tyler couldn't make it & i guess geoff was desperate for at least one woman to be on stage so he emailed me at 9pm the night before the event asking if i would like to present best director. he didn't tell me why, but all the scripts i got to look at to prepare for the teleprompter had her name on it so i put 2 and 2 together. what a weird fuckin thing. hollywood.

Went into this expecting anger about who won, was pleasantly delighted to find it's thorough and valid criticism of the hypercommercial award ceremony. I was SO ANNOYED that they spent 3 hours on ads but couldn't give the award winners, many of whom are small teams proud they were even nominated, time to accept their award. The amount of titles that they just cleared off a check list without even acknowledging the creators I found inflammatory, but the way they offered a scant 14 minutes between EVERY person who was allowed to go up infuriated me.

I only watched it because my friend who's obsessed with BG3 wanted us to see if they won and let me tell you, never again. Pick a lane game awards, are you an award show or a game trailer showcase? If you can't give your due respect to the hard working artists that won said awards change your name.

Also they said you could win a free steamdeck at some link BUT THE PAGE IT LINKED TO DIED AND DIDN'T LET ME IN UNTIL THE OFFER EXPIRED I AM SO SALTY ABOUT THIS EVEN THOUGH MY CHANCES OF WINNING ARE LIKE .0001% HOW DARE YOU GAME AWARDS!!!

P.S. would like to point out how awful the chat was while it streamed. Any time a black person or a woman was on screen or (heavens forbid) a black woman, the chat would SCREAM "woke! woke! woke!" and also single letter messages that I don't understand. Why tf are g*mers like this?