After sharing a reference from two decades ago, got told I was dating myself
30-something absolute dipshit, still communist
she'll want an antacid. then pillows. then the plush dog. then a small glass of oat milk. then an oreo. then blankets. then a choice of audio to fall asleep to.
we share this with love, of course. good night jenni, good night any other syskids online
This one has posted a lot of negativity previously, that it felt that as some good things happen, it would want to share its joy instead.
It did probably the scariest thing it could have this past weekend and that was reach out to partner "3" (in previous post) and reconnect... which was frightening all around and it's still hung up on a bit of anxiety around that. And finding a way to talk to its spouse about that.
The material conditions that this one lives in have not changed, and it still doesn't see a future for itself - but it wants to. That's what's changed.
(ex) Partner "2" (in previous post) and even this one's spouse both said that this one had light in its eyes and a warmth that it shouldn't lose whenever it saw partner "3" (and 3's partners also said the same thing about them), and today, for their birthday, this one got to exist in the same space and just. talk. For hours. Listening to their own joy.
It came home, and is getting to see its spouse come home from the hospital (non-emergency, mostly positive?) after more than a week, in a much different emotional environment than she left in.
Also masc'ing up and having random people not sure how to gender it correctly is bringing a little bit of gender euphoria.
we're not really sure why, but we're also undergoing a bit of partial re-integration? It's not the first time we've re-threaded, and we'll likely unthread again soon but it's just where we're at at the moment.