thats what im trying to get away from. i want to get rid of the dismissive mindset that pushes people away. more than anything, i pushed myself away. i still need to figure out who i truly am outside of the bandwagon effect that came about from gamergate and dank memes about hating furries and people enjoying all the wrong things about filthyfrank and idubbz and the social norm to just fucking hate people and push each other away that was creeping up towards the later end of the 2010s and into 2020.
grace is probably a personification of the pure weirdness in me, of which i did such a good job at pushing away.
