• <- look at this lil fella

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-=🤍=-

i do not know when i will be able to walk in the land of the living again, but when i do, i will look back at you with tears in my hollow eyes. even though i may continue to drift endlessly, i will always cherish you for keeping me strong and sending me the right way. every day i spent with you was more beautiful than anything i had been before.

i will love you.
i will miss you.
i will remember you.
thank you.

-=🤍=-

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nb trans autistic furry plural system of 5-ish. occasionally makes art stuff and game things, but we mostly post dumb shit. ms paint and comic sans haters beware!


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LeminWedj
@LeminWedj
refugee from the internet of the mid 2010s where making fun of weird people was the cool thing, who is trying to now become a weird person even though the mindset to make fun of things is burnt into the personality. never able to really be that weird.

thats what im trying to get away from. i want to get rid of the dismissive mindset that pushes people away. more than anything, i pushed myself away. i still need to figure out who i truly am outside of the bandwagon effect that came about from gamergate and dank memes about hating furries and people enjoying all the wrong things about filthyfrank and idubbz and the social norm to just fucking hate people and push each other away that was creeping up towards the later end of the 2010s and into 2020.

grace is probably a personification of the pure weirdness in me, of which i did such a good job at pushing away.


LeminWedj
@LeminWedj
and the more i fucking talk about it means the less i act on it, and if i dont act on this shit im never gonna be a freak. i need to change.

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in reply to @LeminWedj's post:

kind of echoes some of the difficulties mentioned in this healthygamergg clip, where you get a certain intellectual satisfaction of self-improvement, but not the actual practice of self-improvement.

it's good to push yourself within certain limits, but it's also good to give yourself some credit.
like, sure, talking about it momentarily halts growth (bc intellectual satisfaction), but it plants seeds for more growth down the road.
i bet that, in a decade, you'd have made far more personal progress after having talked about this stuffs years ago than if you had never talked about it at all.

..also, it takes way more spoons to just apply things directly than just talking, so some of this could be subconscious spoon management — but i understand the fear of complacency!