tl;dr: me and my partner are at our absolute rock bottom atm. we live with 2 other people and they are determined on making life hell for both of us. We need to get out NOW.
We can't sleep bc we don't have a bed, we've been resting on either an old moldy mattress or a pile of blankets on the ground, constantly waking up with roaches or centipedes walking over our bodies, not to mention how much noise these people make, specially when they think we're asleep. No, we can't sleep when they are asleep, bc they spread their sleep in naps the whole day. My partner has chronic pain that flares up bc of stress, it pains me seeing them in desperation every single day for just a bit of relief, just a minute break from all of this. It was fucking awful recovering from a pneumonia last week when I couldn't even keep my body warm or have a decent meal.
Talking about meals, did I mention we are paying 100% of all the bills, paying for ours and THEIR food, while also having no access to it? Oh yeah baby, we have to fucking hide food in our room because they take everything they see, hide in their room, and don't eat anything, so everything just spoils or burn, or just go down the drain bc they can't be bothered to only take what they will use. And yeah, we've tried to confront them, multiple times, they act offended and the situation gets even worse for the whole week after. I don't say it lightly, we've been trying to sleep starvation away.
Oh yeah, we also can only use the bathroom like twice a day, because they are either taking their 10th daily shower, or whatever the fuck else there is to do in a bathroom. So trying to shower consistently have been fun, when there's no water left in the reservoir. My teeth are super happy with it too!
Not to mention, we are queer people hearing homo/transphobic shit every. single. day. Stuff that honestly makes us fear for our safety.
We've been here for about 3 years, it was a desperate attempt to scape from an uncomfortably similar situation, ended up just jumping from the boiling oil straight to the fire. Since then we've probably paid more than 5k brl to help these people ease their debts, and we never saw a penny of that back. It seemed ok at the start, but things only got worse, and they only got greedier and entitled. Why don't we stop paying for stuff? bc we have no choice, we still need power and internet to work, we've since stopped paying for anything else but they still find ways to steal from us. If we don't pay, they won't pay, and we need to keep working.
All I have to live for is the hope that we'll get out eventually. But I'm tired, I can't keep up anymore, I've been running non stop since I was born and never really got anywhere. Abusive family was always weighing me down, and it feels like no matter how hard I try, I'll never leave by my own, for every step forward I make, I fall back 3. So I'm making this post, hoping that someone, anyone will hear me scream. I've always tried to take things on my own hands, not bother anyone else, but I can keep myself alive like this. My only other option is to sell myself, but I honestly doubt anyone would be interested enough to pay for my pics.
So please, if you can, a mere dollar would already help, it is easy to fix things for me. A dollar converts to about 5brl, but 1brl here is worth way more than a dollar in the us. Please, all I need is two months of rent so people will consider renting a place for us. Rent here is around 1300brl ---> 250usd, and I have 900brl right now. All I need is ~350usd to run away. I can usually do this quickly with commissions, but having to rebuy, repair, or keep dealing again and again with the shit these people keep throwing at us is making this fucking impossible. I truly do need help.
Please consider donating to my ko-fi, any amount would already be a great help. Thank you if you've read till this point. This is really hard for me to do, so I appreciate that you cared enough to hear this cow moo angrily to the sky ๐๐ฎ
