i'm gonna be uploading full resolution versions of my art over the next few weeks (that wasn't commission work) to this kofi account under a creative commons license with a pay-what-you-want price tag set to $0 min. Partly, this is to functionally actually back up and distribute my art in the wake of cohost's imminent demise, and it's long overdue anyway. But yeah. There's an option to send $5 or more to me monthly too to help me get out of this hole for good, and i'd like to add to it as a shoutout and integration feature in the future to thank the people helping me out, but it will be some time before i can promise a commitment like streaming again. i need to finish owed work first.
the following is a copy of the post i've made on kofi about how it's not going so great over here. (You can tell it's not going well by the fact that it's a kofi link.)
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Hey, it's rawks.
Here's something im not good at verbalizing:
A long-term goal, and honesty about the situation im in.
i need help.
i have been struggling to survive for a very long time now, i and i need to change how i'm handling work and life or it's going to kill me sooner than later.
Through the pandemic until current time, i've been working a side job that increasingly has been becoming unsustainable for my mental and physical health, but it's been paying the bills. i've gone unmedicated for the last five years for diagnosed depression, hypermobility, chronic migraines, Raynaud's disease, scoliosis, and anxiety, and i have very good reason to suspect that i've been living with undiagnosed adhd this entire time.
Being visibly queer in public has also proven to be more daunting than i was anticipating, and i'd like to remove myself from working in there for my own safety before moving forward with further visibly transitioning. i do not live in a kind area toward visibly queer folks, nor work a safe job.
Catching Covid three times and further damaging my bad joints hasn't made this rock any easier to roll uphill, and more recent pet health needs have absolutely drained my savings to dust.
i have a backlog of art i owe people that i want to finish dammit! The job that unfortunately isn't covering my medical needs is paying the bills, but i cannot functionally complete owed art while maintaining enough hours to survive on this income. This isn't right, i need to fix this.
But five years of stubbornly trying to work through it hasn't been enough, and it's getting worse. i can't keep this up.
i desperately need healthcare and assistance.
If you like my art, please throw it at your walls and friends and projects. The art that i share here will be released under a creative commons license, with full resolution downloads, under a pay-what-you-want-including-free link. All i ask is that you ain't a nazi.
if you want my art printed on something and shipped, i have all of my redbubble uploads listed at a 50% markup rate, so those purchases do genuinely help me!
God, i would love to pull all of my work from there. It it a necessary evil i'm choosing to work with until i can survive without it.
If you're feeling more generous than i can would ever be able to express my gratitude sufficiently for, i'll be setting up a subscription donation thing, long-term goals for these will include shout-outs and art and things when i have enough spoons to handle more than my current workload.
It feels worth noting that i can functionally survive on as little as $500 a month if i have to, even reaching that kind of goal would save me so much faster than i have been managing to do alone.
i am currently in a stable living situation, and not in immediate danger. but this may be the last chance i get to reach as many people as i can now for a long time.
Thank you for reading my sob little story, i'm just kinda at my tether here. Life has been unkind of late.