trans girl that is going to destroy video games and defeat god in hand to hand combat (real)
sometimes i stream bc the vroid model i slapped together gives me good gender feels c:
ko-fi if you're like "wow lets give lily money :)"
https://ko-fi.com/lilycutesmith
man, i've been trying real hard to actually WORK on personal game projects but it feels so Impossible, and on top of that I barely have any desire to actually play video games and it kinda sucks actually. "oh yeah you invested over 10 years into game development as a hobby/skill and now you can barely flex it lol noob" idk real frustrating shit imo!!!
posting bc im in the weird time space of waiting to leave for work and not having enough time to actually do anything lol
God, I was in that space for a good few years, don't really have any advice to offer but definitely sympathy :/
the fucked up part is that I AM working on a team project and my ability to work on that hasnt really been impacted, and I even MADE and released a game earlier this year that I've been meaning to implement online to im just like, deflates!!!! knowing im capable but feeling physically incapable of doing the things i want bc my brain just cannot produce the images to get me going Feels Bad!
Yeah that's me after work every day. I want to work on My Shit but also I want to burn my entire dev environment in a bonfire and piss on the ashes
