Happy TDoV!! I never really know what to do for these things bc I don’t like showing my face online, so here’s a trans-flag-coloured sky!
I struggle a lot with feeling “trans-enough” to participate in things like this; I currently ID as nonbinary, but I think I would transition more publicly/visibly if my parents weren’t alive. Does that make me less trans, because I’m less visibly gender nonconforming than other people? Because I’m not doing HRT? Because I’m waiting? Because I feel that I CAN wait?
On the one hand, I feel like there’s a degree to which it doesn’t matter; I know that I’m trans (or at the very least not cis), and I don’t need to justify that to anyone but myself. On the other hand, though, I can’t help but feel like an imposter. I feel like I haven’t done my time in the mines or whatever. I don’t really experience dysphoria, and I’m not public enough about my trans-ness to get called slurs or something. I don’t know. It’s a weird feeling, but also I’m still figuring things out, so I’m trying to give myself time and grace to discover who I want to be. Hopefully that’s enough.