Lizstar

Lizstar

@Lizstar

Gay Murr Girl

Liz, Goblin, Part-Time Shark, VTuber, retired speedrunner, author, GDQ staff, Sega fan, "Yuri Sommelier", Walking Encyclopedia of All Things Useless, Twitch partner, general menace. Says "Murr" a lot. This is not a place of honor, views my own, etc. Avatar art by me.

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Lizstar
@Lizstar

Does anyone else do this? I think it's very weird, but maybe someone else does this.

You know when you're like, walkin' down the street, and your entire day is ruined because you remembered something embarrassing you once did? Well, whenever that happens to me, my body for some reason instinctively starts just spouting random gibberish. I just loudly yell something. I don't intentionally do it, I never THINK of doing it, it just immediately happens. I guess my brain is like "OKAY WE'RE GONNA DROWN THAT OUT NOW BEFORE I THINK ABOUT IT ANY FURTHER, THANK YOU"

Like I was just lying in bed, thinking about things, and I thought of something embarassing I did a decade ago. IMMEDIATELY, I spout out: "I AM THE MOST DEPRESSED PERSON IN THE WORLD", then a small beat, and as I was still thinking about the thing, I then went "HI."

And then I thought about how weird it is that I just... instinctively do this, and hey, I guess it worked. I remember one time I was driving with my girlfriend at the time, and we weren't really talking, but I remembered something embarassing and just cried out "I'M SORRY" and she was like "...what"

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renkotsuban
@renkotsuban

I DO THIS ALL THE TIME! It scares the crap out of my partner when we are lying in bed and falling asleep. I'll remember something terrible from high school or whatever and blurt out I FUCKIN HATE MYSELF, and he wakes up in a bleary panic wondering what's going on, and I have to explain that it's something that happened literal decades ago and my little outburst solved it. Brains are so weird!

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renkotsuban
@renkotsuban

It's like our brain is trying to interrupt the flow of bad thoughts before it can ramp up and get us to spiral, maybe? It certainly helps me in that regard, though I do get alarmed reactions from anyone within earshot, haha 😅

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Librus
@Librus

I do this all the time! Sometimes it's a noise I can only recreate in my head, but usually it's a sound that can function as a sort of punchline, like the infamous frying pan WHONG sound, or the sound of a firework rocket whistling into the distance, or something else that has a "punch" to it. I seldom vocalize these noises, though when I do, it's more of just an... awkward noise, one that I can't exactly describe in text. Like just a weird croak, or grumble, or an "Aaaah!" sound that I quickly correct into a random nonsense phrase.

It feels like a means to disrupt (or interrupt, rather) that train of thought and focus on something else super quickly, though it's so automatic at this point that I don't fully know the psychology behind it...

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valconiglio
@valconiglio

This absolutely happens to me too. I'll also blush really hard and say some nonsense like "I'm the most embarrassing person to ever live!!" or sometimes even random noises. The thing you said about maybe your brain is just trying to drown out the bad thoughts is also what my brain does. I hadn't thought about it that way.

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shmumbler
@shmumbler

Yes, except I'll start thinking a response to the memory and just accidentally blurt out the last half of the sentence. So like I'll be sitting in the shower thinking "I can't believe you-" and then yell "fucking did that!"

Alternatively, I'll just start making random noises. Which is the more common thing when I'm around other people, like at work.

In public people seem to just ignore it, but my wife thinks it's funny.

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