Chatting with a friend about my robot fursona and how it is exploratory and has helped me figure things out about myself
gone from accidental thing because I could not execute the original idea to a very exploratory representation for me.
Wishes, desires, idealization and yet giving an idealized form severe issues that i have. BUt that desire to open up myself and trust, and bring joy with that trust.
at a point had very limited memory capacity. Memory issues. Some were lost irrevocably (though in the way I have written a lil about it, it was stored separately, trying to keep it safe while upgrading so they could be there) So treasured memories are gone, but keeping pointers to them as a reminder.
I have memory issues. I take notes to be able to remember. I do keep external memories that way. I cannot really access a lot of memories by will alone. I need some stimulus to trigger the remembrance
so of course things are missing.
But I am still here. I am me.