Rereading berserk
This is VERY VERY DIFFERENTLY translated in the spanish translation I am reading
in the spanish translation he is not talking ESPECIFICALLLY about Kasca
but the "fire" of human connection he was running away from
yeah very different tone there though she is one of the very few human connections he has at that point. And he had abandoned them again for two years of extreme violence
like
in the end part of the core message IS the same
"what a fucking idiot I have been, running away from human connection, drowning myself in blood, I cannot allow myself to lose that again"
like
it is not subtle at all, golden age arc is about guts learning to trust people and then EVERYTHING GOING TO SHIT
then the rest of it after is about guts RELEARNING how to gain human connection after extreme trauma
again.
berserk
secretly (not secretly) about the power of friendship and healing trauma through human connection