It feels
extremely affirming
extremely good to be told by others that they lust after me
that they find me appealing
10 years ago I would have said that is impossible. Self loathing and extremely bad self perception.
I squirm. I get happy. I am filled with joy when someone tells me.
It is not easy to believe it myself. Or to see myself as appealing.
But I defer to others when they tell me so. Maybe one day I will believe it myself, as I am.
Latex helps me perceive myself as appealing, but without it, I struggle.