Okay, it's not that late. It's about 110 internet time. Just getting to a point most would consider late I think. But not like...333 late where everything is weird.
But I had a thought, so wanted to type and get it out, since I rather not use Twitter and feel like I haven't really contributed to this site recently.
Another end of day, another day I think where did the time go. It feels like everything is moving too fast. I'm too busy trying to stay alive to enjoy much of it. And like, I tell myself one day it'll get better, and I sure hope it does. But man. I hate the fact that even with splitting the bills two ways, I need to work two jobs just to try and get ahead in life. And I just stopped working 3! 2 is a relief. And like, I don't spend my money on almost anything extra. (Though I suppose there are a few expensive purchases I have)
Almost a year ago I had to ask my parents for a bailout because I lost a job and was about to be fucked. Fortunately my parents were in a position to help me. But during that time I turned in all the data I had about my spending. I had been tracking that for years, budgeting, everything. My parents always sort of took the stance of "oh, Moose just doesn't have money because he buys video games" or spend it on other stupid things. But then they saw the numbers. Then their minds changed. They realized "oh... He just simply doesn't make enough"
And I make more than the average for my area! I don't have Netflix, the only entertainment I pay for is Spotify. I don't even pay for Microsoft office. I have a (comparitively) cheap car payment. My rent is low for the area. And it's still not enough. I don't know how people do it. I can't imagine.
Anyways, here's a song that makes me feel good: