everyone talks about how they made murder theme parks in roller coaster tycoon, but the first time i drowned a guest when i was 10 i had to shut the game off to give the reality of what i had just done some time to marinate in my mind.
he came to find joy in my creation. to engage with what i had made for him.
and i killed him for it.
did he spend his final, desperate moments wondering what he had done wrong?
and would he have felt better or worse to know i was merely curious?
that i allowed him to struggle and perish in isolation because i wanted to know if, even in a world made of mirth, death was real?
and why should it matter that i regretted to learn the answer?