Hannah

... about an old story concept that's been knocking around in my head for years. If you're not familiar, @jayrockin is a super cool speculative evolution artist with this expansive world building project that has so many cool alien dudes. I originally followed them on twitter, and I'm thrilled that they've been posting here on cohost.

Way back before I started writing erotica, and long before I knew I was trans, I would just map out fun story ideas in my head, and mostly do very little with them. One of the more persistent ones that's stuck with me over the years is about a human girl who's trying to find a roommate on the planet she's just moved to, and wants to preferably room with another human. What she ends up with is this alien shapeshifter who has adopted a human form, painstakingly recreated over years of study and integration with humans (so very much like Odo, but this was before my first DS9 viewing). This alien isn't trying to deceive her, and clears up her misunderstanding right away, but she doesn't have the heart to turn away what seems like a perfectly nice roomy, so...

What followed was a bunch of excuses to explain the shapeshifter's biology and culture. Why they wanted to integrate with humans specifically, how the shifting worked, details of sex and gender on their home world. This is why Jay's work reminded me of it. All of these things are still contained in my memory, in a shocking amount of detail, because it was such a powerful idea to me. I can look back now and see the obvious - this was a gender fantasy. This was some bona fide trans escapism. Of course I never put that together at the time.

A part of me wants to finally put words to this concept, because I still really enjoy thinking about it. The main thing holding me back I guess, is that it never really had a core story. Their was no central conflict, it was just a series of vignettes about life with a weird alien. But having now typed that out, I think that might actually be fine. I've still gotta finish other things I'm working on, but I'm curious if this concept intrigues anyone else. Honestly, even if it doesn't, I might make it just for me.

... and yes, it would get horny. Don't fret.