My psychologist and I have already long since known I have autism + adhd combined type. But in Aus I need to get a psychiatric diagnosis, which is a lot more expensive and prohibitive.
I have an awful lot of fear getting the diagnosis because of the constant ablisim in the world stripping rights from folks with a diagnosis. Also from basic things such as it impacting immigration and travel potential somewhat to certain countries (such as the US where many of my loved ones are)
But like... At this point, my health is making it so hard to function during periods of high stress that having medication and some government support, no matter how meager, out weighs a lot of the potential risks and limitations it could impose.
I want to live a comfortable and happy life. Part of that is going to have to keep accepting that some things will have to be out of reach in order to get better.
I may delete this ramble later, but it's important I get things out into the world like this when I think of them, otherwise nothing gets done... Because of the adhd