♿︎｜Asriel // Azi｜Θ∆｜🏳️‍⚧️

I stood here answering riddles for like 20 minutes but it didn't do any good

folks i can't get enough of this one. i am thoroughly tooting my own honk here

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It's me, Azi. If you don't know me, you might have at least seen a couple of my chosts floating around. Hits, such as the Cohost Plus! Installation Wizard; the Eggbug Wizard Followup, the Cohost Yahoo! Parody, and more.

For those who already know me, you are probably already aware of this, but over the past year I have been relying on GoFundMe to live, as I am disabled and do not (yet) have SSI. Up until November, anyways, when, thanks to an unexpected "happy" accident (and the loss of a car), we received an insurance payout that allowed us to coast through the following few months.

Well, that time is long up, and now things are getting dicey.

1. My boyfriend's father died, and he had to take bereavement leave. Since returning, his mental health has effected his performance, and they have scaled back his hours worked. This is on top of continually using quasi-legal accounting practices to report a higher gross income, which negatively effects our rent.
2. The US Department of Housing & Urban Development has decided GoFundMe is classifiable as income, as due to the batching GoFundMe applies with their donations, and the singular source for deposits, it is "sporadic" income, or a regular contribution or gift. This means that to receive regular donations through the GoFundMe system would be to risk a major increase in rent.
3. We currently do not have enough of a household income to meet our monthly expenses. Critical expenses, such as housing, grocery delivery, internet, and phone service are only partially met, and secondary expenses such as home & hygiene supplies, storage, device insurance, and more are not met without assistance.
4. My partner lost his food stamps, and has been struggling to reestablish them. This has greatly dipped into our monthly budget. Additionally, due to circumstances, my own food stamps were accidentally over-extended, resulting in me being out a week of food, a week before my stamps refill. I am hungry.

So I need your help.

Namely, can people spare some change to help me pay off our next few expenses?

Since I can't use GoFundMe, there are two primary ways you can help me out:

1. StreamElements — It's not much better, but its inconsistent enough they shouldn't count it as income, and I can choose when the deposits are made: https://streamelements.com/misutaaasriel/tip
2. Cash App — Only works in the US, and I pay a fee because I opted not to use my legal name. But it also doesn't go to my bank account so theres leeway with the funds: http://cash.app/$MisutaaAsriel

Additionally, things like the occasional Amazon or Walmart gift-card are welcome.

Those would help, in smaller amounts, with things such as personal hygiene supplies, paper plates, disposable cups, and other basic necessities around the house. You can reach me about these things through my Discord, or (whilst it stands), Twitter.

I know it's a lot to ask, after we've been helped so much as it is, but I don't really have any other avenues but to beg for help…

Any and all assistance is appreciated.

— Asriel

• Rent ($587 until our reevaluation is approved; stalled as of current.)
• Phone ($84)
• Internet ($50)

Need assistance with…

• Phone ($200)
• Device Insurance ($12)
• Storage ($3)

Would appreciate help with…

• Music ($11 — I can go without this one but I'd lose access to most of my music. It's the only sort of "Quality of Life" thing I've got current.)

Lawyer said disability appeal is in review. I'm hopeful, very hopeful! But i still probably won't know or see anything for a month or two.

If anyone can help, I'd be forever grateful. They haven't adjusted our rent despite filing for it, and by my current calculations, rent is 100% of our household income.

And this is low income housing. If we lose this, there is literally nowhere else to go from here.

UPDATE

We have mostly enough to cover the backdue rent. Thank you to everyone who helped with that.

We're getting closer to being caught up on everything again. 😭

I'd guess that most human activity throughout a routine day is irrational activity. we're acting on impulses and feelings, looking for pleasurable sensations, going through social routines, fulfilling the needs and whims of others. how much of what we do during the day is actually reasoned out first? probably not much. even if you're in some kind of brainy profession, much of your work is likely not to require much thought.

yet Western society seems to have converged round the illusion that the ideal human being is perfectly rational and "logical" at all times--and there's macabre amusement in seeing how the most obnoxious believers in this fallacy are people like Christian dingbats, i.e. people whose core personality is irrational adherence to an outlandish faith.

the premise of the fallacy is roughly this: human beings are like state machines who run through a basic program. (1) they perceive the world. (2) they think about their perceptions and come to a rational and logical decision about what to do. (3) they act on the logic, and go back to perceiving. now maybe people do behave like this in certain limited circumstances but plainly this doesn't really apply to most human behavior--yet the hardcore "rationalist" will claim that this is how they always behave.

how'd this wretched state of affairs come about? can we blame Protestantism? (I'm Catholic btw)

~Chara

As in many ways, they are correct; living beings are machines of input and output, action and reaction.

But there is a series of fatal flaws in their own logic:

1. that the input they receive; their perception, is functionally correct; — In many cases this is false, and leads to undesirable action, as what was perceived did not align with reality.
2. that their thought process themselves are without flaw, blemish, or error; — As with all computing, there are bugs; flaws in the computational state due to oversight, damages, unexpected state, unhandled errors, and more. Thought is no different. From chemical imbalance to brain damage; from lack of clear input, to spontaneous output; thought is not without its problem states.
3. that the input they receive is complete. — It happens all the time where we as living beings are given only a fraction of information about a situation or our surroundings, and given woefully inadequate time to act upon it. The only way in which, barring the first two issues, true "rational" thought could be 100% guaranteed is if one had unilateral understanding of every variable that could possibly be conceived, let alone perceived.

So they're right in a way, but horrendously wrong about the conclusion they make. If anything, the reality is the exact opposite!