ive become increasingly disillusioned with ideas of of striving for virality and self promotion and putting myself out there all i want is to be a weird obscure gremlin who is well respected in a niche society of other weird obscure gremlins but who is not perceived by the larger public. like there were times not too long ago where i felt like i should work towards making something out of my streaming and speedrunning hobby and get myself on gdq and become a personality and i dont think i want any of that anymore. i want to live in the shadows