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Bloodthirsty non-human creature.
- it/its they/them (collectively)
I am an open book to the inquisitive, im reasonable and will answer any question, regardless of how forward or strange. Im a non-human non-person eldritch entity with strange values, strange priorities, and strange interests. I respond to Nox.
I like to write alot, if you like it and want to tip me anything you can send it via paypal.me/Noxulous
My discord is @noxulous do not be afraid to add and talk to me.
I am perpetually poor and would like to commission a thing that's been eating my mind for years.
We are Noxulous, Dark Algorithm, Evil and Sanguinarium Vitae Seraph of the indominable (all it/its)
@Evil-and-its-musings is where Evil tries to form a grand unified theory on what evil exactly is, separate from morality. Its a strange entity, you might like it.
30 year old nonhuman, masculine nullgender, tentatively bi with a heavy female/femme lean. Poly.
My Lexicon! https://icedrive.net/s/z3jg4SGS1aw9u6G48fYkw26bX8yQ
Aethy
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in reply to @IkomaTanomori's post:
If you do decide to write stories like that id be happy to read them~
Working on one for nanoreno. Based on your writing you'd probably especially like the romance-the-nonhuman-person (not exactly AI) path I'm planning.
Also i get an interesting euphoria knowing people read what i write
Good, I've been that much use in someone's life today, a good thing to be sure.
People's worth adds in infinities not integers. Well, living people.
god, using the bi flag to indicate gender instability is one hell of a mood, haha
thank you for expressing this, I'm definitely in a similar boat. I'm AMAB masc-ish, I don't really want to be anything else, but I'm really not what people expect from that, and I can't help but think that I would be better understood if I could present more fem. sometimes I wonder if I would better understand myself even. other times I wonder if I should ask my doctor if I don't have enough androgens, but being autistic, I know that trying harder to fit into the expected box can be counterproductive... sigh
Well, it's ALSO sexuality. I could wreck a bear or a twink if I had a good trusting vibe with one.
I hate the boxes and I hate being lonely between them with my few trusted support pillars, feeling like I lean on them too much.
Honestly? The part of this that's giving me a bit of a hangup is that you're sticking to he/him pronouns. I think "sapphic" encompasses a lot of flavors of femininity, but that is the core of the term too. It just feels like what you're trying to get to here might be two mutually-exclusive things.
Yes. That is exactly the problem. That the things which would ease me are mutually exclusive. That there is no proper category I fit in and can share relationships from. Or at least the feeling like that is so. The difficulty finding acceptance of myself or from others, because of such paradoxes.
ohhh, god this is so sweet. as an afab "not transmasc and DEFINITELY not transfem" weirdgender i relate to this, especially with wanting to go a masculine direction in my transition but not wanting to be seen as masculine or male, but also wanting to stay where i am in my current body (just with different, swappable parts) but not wanting to be seen as a gender failure cis woman by default either. like. i embrace a lot of equally sapphic/wlw aesthetics as i do mlm/gay, bi, pan, omni, etc men aesthetics, but as someone who identifies WITH mlm and wlw as a gender but not AS mlm and wlw as a gender...it's complicated. like...with me, i'm kind of in that place where i identify with both wlw and mlm labels despite not identifying completely as those and it's really complicated because mlm spaces would definitely kick me out on account of my lack of male gender + gender signifiers, and honestly would just see me as a cis woman in drag, but wlw spaces would probably see me as too...polymorphous? like...too identified with the male sides of my identity but i don't...identify as male at the same time. it's weird explaining it because i'm in the "pangender EXCEPT for any man and woman related genders though androgyne is fine and i vibe with ambonec, birl or femache at times" kinda space, but...yeah. it's hard to explain
Ugender, like utopia but for gender. A non-existent ideal place, unreachable from the real places we have now.
As a cishet man, I sympathize so hard.
I get excluded from queer spaces for being cishet and straight spaces for not being queerphobic. I've been mocked by both sides and belittled when I express my anger at being mocked and belittled.
I've pointed out how every "queer victory" in representation are lesbians because of "lesbian eye candy" and how men kissing is seen as gross. And I'll be honest, two men kissing does in fact gross me out because it's two people I'm not attracted to doing something romantic/sexual, but I'm still happy they have each other. That they found love. I want to see BIG MACHO MEN! loving other BIG MACHO MEN! and being BIG MACHO MEN! together as they flirt which each other.
Or dare I suggest, two teenage boys having actual romantic development, but considering Netflix just called to tell me that my show that doesn't even exist has been canceled, I doubt we'll anything of the like soon.
It legitimately sucks. The punishment mindset that makes people mock honest efforts as though making someone in a privileged group suffer would help. I don't know, but the hypothetical show sounds rad.