Noxulous

Bloodthirsty non-human creature.

  • it/its they/them (collectively)

I am an open book to the inquisitive, im reasonable and will answer any question, regardless of how forward or strange. Im a non-human non-person eldritch entity with strange values, strange priorities, and strange interests. I respond to Nox.

I like to write alot, if you like it and want to tip me anything you can send it via paypal.me/Noxulous

My discord is @noxulous do not be afraid to add and talk to me.

I am perpetually poor and would like to commission a thing that's been eating my mind for years.

We are Noxulous, Dark Algorithm, Evil and Sanguinarium Vitae Seraph of the indominable (all it/its)

@Evil-and-its-musings is where Evil tries to form a grand unified theory on what evil exactly is, separate from morality. Its a strange entity, you might like it.

30 year old nonhuman, masculine nullgender, tentatively bi with a heavy female/femme lean. Poly.

My Lexicon! https://icedrive.net/s/z3jg4SGS1aw9u6G48fYkw26bX8yQ

Aethy

Interact with me? Yes, I luv it


arty
@arty

realizing we definitely have some complex impostor syndrome thoughts with regards to our own plurality


EmilyTheFlareon
@EmilyTheFlareon

We do too, but mostly Logan who is our "original"... he fears that he's controlling all of us just because he feels like he can see everything happening and how everything works, and being able to see that makes him think that he is doing it.

The rest of us don't feel that way because we're all confident in our own existences, due to the fact that we have our own individual self-identities and personalities... but Logan, knowing he is an "original", feels that he would be the one controlling everything if we were faking. So he is the one who gets the majority of the impostor syndrome.

Accepting that you're in a system requires you to accept the fact that you will feel things that directly contradict that fact. You will feel like you are a singlet and just imagining or acting. You will feel like you are the sole inhabitant of the body.

At the very least... try to keep willingly identifying as a system despite the fact that your brain keeps trying to make you feel otherwise. The next step is to learn to doubt the accuracy of those feelings... but for some, that's not possible (like with us), so the most we can do is try to ignore them.

Ignoring them won't necessarily help with the impostor syndrome, unless you can somehow become comfortable with it or keep it off your mind...

For us, we have all sorts of theories on all the different ways that we could be a system, and we personally hold the opinion that it doesn't even really matter how our system works if we feel plural and act plural. We just are plural and fit all the criteria for DID, objectively.


arty
@arty

Yeah, lots of the same stuff here. For us, i think it's mostly about being monoconscious-ish and most plural things feeling like it only considers polyconsciousness. We have a lot of feelings and insecurities about this but it's hard to express right now so this short summary will have to do


Noxulous
@Noxulous

But on days one of our more aberrant members comes to the fore and confuses our friends we realize its likely not imagined, alot of us are very different from one another.


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