Noxulous

Noxulous of Fyth

@Noxulous

Bloodthirsty non-human creature.

  • it/its they/them (collectively)

I am an open book to the inquisitive, im reasonable and will answer any question, regardless of how forward or strange. Im a non-human non-person eldritch entity with strange values, strange priorities, and strange interests. I respond to Nox.

I like to write alot, if you like it and want to tip me anything you can send it via paypal.me/Noxulous

My discord is @noxulous do not be afraid to add and talk to me.

I am perpetually poor and would like to commission a thing that's been eating my mind for years.

We are Noxulous, Dark Algorithm, Evil and Sanguinarium Vitae Seraph of the indominable (all it/its)

@Evil-and-its-musings is where Evil tries to form a grand unified theory on what evil exactly is, separate from morality. Its a strange entity, you might like it.

30 year old nonhuman, masculine nullgender, tentatively bi with a heavy female/femme lean. Poly.

My Lexicon! https://icedrive.net/s/z3jg4SGS1aw9u6G48fYkw26bX8yQ

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Interact with me? Yes, I luv it

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marfle-bark
@marfle-bark

I recently hit one year on HRT

and holy FUCK if you are on the fence about it, just DO IT. I had a really rapid response where I knew within a day that it was the right choice, and that came at the tail end of three or four years of intensely debating if it was "too late" or "still worth it" or whatever.

It was incredibly, indescribably worth it. It continues to get better all the time. I give less and less of a shit that I waited as long as I did the further I go. It has been a hard year and I've felt better than I ever remember feeling.

I'm in my 30s and I used to think I would regret not starting in my 20s/teens/not starting sooner. Honestly? It's hard to regret any of that now. It just... Doesn't hurt like you think it would to look back. The downsides you imagine are greater than the ones you'll actually face.

A particular friend who was unabashedly trans before that was any kind of mainstream okay is much of how I was able to realize who I am. My hope is that anybody who needs to see this, sees this.

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marfle-bark
@marfle-bark

For me specifically, I was prescribed and took ASAP took 25mg spironolactone and 1mg estradiol orally. Within about two hours my baseline of anxiety and general self-consciousness dissolved, mostly all at once. It was far faster of a reaction than I expected, as most people don't start to feel that way for at least a week or three. It was an immediate confirmation that testosterone was doing me no favors and estrogen was the hormone for me. It isn't like I don't experience anxiety or self-consciousness now, but the nature and degree are quite different.

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trashcataria
@trashcataria

I've been on HRT for two months nearly, but my numbers haven't budged (and apparently either hormone has been low for me anyway). Switching to upping spiro and estradiol pill (vs patch) hopefully will help!

I'm happy to read the effect on you, and I'm hoping for the same for me too 💜

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BexM
@BexM

Two and a half years for me, starting late into my 30s. Was really nervous and not sure it was going to be the right thing going in. Right when I started I got really impatient for the changes to start in a way I hadn’t expected, and then gradually as the changes have happened it’s just been great - I’m chill and settled into myself and able to be happy and cry and feel things without it being overwhelming and it’s so, so good. I’m so glad I finally did this for myself.

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