Like, the chemical change of wood to charcoal; how helping someone just a little can mean so much to them; the speed and character of oil on water retracting from soap; how a collection of memories makes the day-to-day choices of a person; the beneficial role of wasps in an ecosystem; how it can all still hurt, even if you don't remember it.
I once helped someone get dressed because they physically couldn't, and that moment changed me. I once had a friend help me out of a bad spot, and when I remembered it the other day I felt so strongly about it that I fucking sobbed on the spot. I once frequented the same neighbourhood produce store until not only did the staff recognize me but I sometimes was confident in recognizing them, and it was nice.
Whatever all that is. That's what I'm driving at.
