no i am not adding people to discord if the reason they're sending me their contact info is because i was having a mental health issue
my brain would just use that as "proof" that my relative emotional fragility is in fact me being manipulative and an abuser
no, my brain doesn't make sense. yes, i do believe my brain is actively seeking reasons to label me an awful irredeemable person. no clue why. probably some extension of the just world fallacy.