A friend said something a few weeks ago that made me self-reflect and once again I am confused as to how I feel about relationships.
But even then, the moment I begin typing this, I'm realized that I'm not confused, society is just weirdly black-and-white about it. "Romantic relationships are an all-or-nothing thing", "you're either in love or you're not"
No thanks, I'm not down with that. I've got my partner who I love very much and want to spend the rest of my life with. I've got my girlfriend who I want to keep getting to know more and more and see where it goes. And I have so many friends ranging from "purely platonic friend" up to "I would love to be in some form of relationship with you".
Turns out it's... drum roll... a spectrum! And I wish that was so much easier to talk about with people! But social norms and a fear of "messing things up" makes me terrified to reach out! I know my friends are generally very mature about stuff like this, if they don't feel similar they're not gonna be weird about it. I just gotta... get to a place where I feel comfortable asking I guess! For some, I'd like a more snuggly relationship. For some, I'd like a more physical relationship. I just! Need! To ask!
In the meantime, a good number of my queer friends have been informally inducted as "family" to me and y'all just gotta deal with it.
(that being said i have talked to a few friends about it in the past and been rejected and like obviously i'm not gonna ask again so if that's you don't worry i'm not continuing to pine needlessly! but i do consider you informal family so :P)
