God this whole week has just been crap
Ended up leaving a server (temporarily! I'll be back in a couple hours), but whereas before I would've done that as self harm, today I am doing it as... self care I guess? I caught my borderline causing me to split on people in an already upsetting situation so I am giving myself distance to calm down and get my brain recentered.
It is interesting how I've turned a form of social self harm into self care. But sometimes you just need a little space and that's not the same thing as isolating yourself.