Okay, need some advice. What would y'all do in my situation?
I hate my job so much, and I've been trying very hard to find new work, and have done just about everything in my power to find something different. I had a phone interview with Target, but I got yet another rejection letter the other night right before my shift ended, and then came home and have a near panic attack over it. I'm at a point where if I get another one, I fear I won't be able to control my emotions because I hate my job that much, and my brain will allow terrible and shameful thoughts to go through my head telling me I'm a worthless piece of shit who fails at everything.
I have an appointment Tuesday scheduled with a case worker that's found some jobs in the area lined up for me. I also just moved into a different home that's drama free, so I want to do everything in my power to keep it that way. I'll probably hear back from my case worker too on what our options are as far as our final bill goes from the last apartment. $1,600 for everything, plus the clean up (which they have to pay for anyway) and a fee of breaking some 60-day notice rule (in the state of KY the law requires a 30-day notice). Got the bill last week, and still nothing from them or the old roommates who have already gone ahead to tell them we aren't paying for that.
I don't know. I should feel stability now, but that isn't going to happen until I'm done with this job and my old roommates and apartment. My job is going to get worse to. Starting Friday, they're having us work 10 hours a day every single day including weekends until they decide to stop, because of Black Friday. I barely got by it last year. I'm not equipped to do it again.
I don't know what to do, I need help and advice on how to manage everything, I feel like I'm losing my mind every day. I don't understand. I just need some advice on how to survive all of this.