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Me in Knockout City after playing since the preview, except I went on vacation immediately after.
Totally understand exactly what you mean. It's always something, and then it feels like you're left in the dust!
I left Rainbow Six last year and frankly, I'm terrified to go back lest I be annihilated by Finnish children.
Me, in Marvel Snap, in October: I hit rank 60, I'm on top of the Goddamn world, a fuzzy god am I
Me, in Marvel Snap, right now: Struggling to break 35 even with recommended top tier decks
I feel you on that - I was in pretty much the same position with MtG when I was still playing it back last year. It felt like it turned on a dime!
This is one of the reasons I tend to stick to single player games. It's not as fun when you can't find someone who's an even match, and mostly play against people WAY better than you
Honestly a good strategy. There's so many really good single player games out there, after all.
And like, I love some skill based games and wish I could play them. I totally understand that whole "The Way to Get Better Is to Practice", but when you play against someone way better than you, it's hard to learn anything when the gap is wide enough. And like you say, it's MOSTLY people who are so much better!
I was pretty good at FPSes; like good enough, in one instance, to face off against the ID Software developers and hold my own. And I went along like this for a while, virtually shooting people with rockets, until one summer I found these kinds of games bored me, and simply stopped playing them. After that, the next game I really got into was Katamari Damacy. I think I made the right choice.
I generally avoid competitive games, unless as an excuse for socialization (which I also avoid). I don't really derive anything from competing with other people, from 'beating' them, and certainly not from losing. Watching the rise of esports has been amusing; watching aggrieved nerds turn into the very jock assholes they despise is a sublime pleasure, being that it confirms so much of what I believe about humanity.
Avoiding competitive games is actually a great strategy. It's not as if we don't have myriad other virtual worlds in which to lose ourselves these days.
Honestly, for me I think it's all mostly some social thing. Seeing people I know playing the game, seeing other people play it. There's still some broken and desperate part of my mind that thinks I can find a community to be a part of, or have friends, and I latch on to something as stupid as a fighting game in a twisted sublimation of other impulses. But such is my own neurosis, I suppose.
That being said, it's really cool to hear that you stood your ground against the ID developers! I still love FPSes, despite myself, and that era was one that I was deep in such content.
Also, you have an excellent point about aggrieved nerds. Even beyond the realm of eSports, it's kind of shocking how many "nerds" wound up being "asshole jocks". I feel like the entire field of organic chemical synthesis is nothing but the "smart" variety of dipshit who wanted to stuff me in a locker...