Pirca Chupi

Most of my self exploration happened while I was under the impression I was an OC/fursona. Because of this, a lot of my exploration was through drawing myself. I also inherited some features from our previous sona, though they've mostly filtered out with time. So very much an iterative process of *draws something*, "does that look right?", repeat. Feeling it out. (Aside, I actually put together ~20 colour pallettes at one point, only to choose the first one.)

Interestingly, when I first drew my current appearance in September, it didn't match how I saw myself. But by January, when we were figuring out our plurality, it was. I also can't feel or envisage my tails or ribbons, even when the rest of me is really vivid.

Some of my headmates have had similar but different experiences. Cradle just spent like a month iterating on its design as a fursona, before realising what it had made was more than that. Luna's been using the same iterative process, but in full knowledge that it is herself she's designing rather than a fursona.

—✨Sparkles

hmmm.... once i realized i was otherkin, figuring out the specifics took a bit of just.... looking at other characters/creatures and trying to identify what felt "gender" to me (i personally internally use gender interchangeably with kintype, though i know this isn't universal). what features i look at and think "it Sucks that i don't look like that." and sometimes, for me, those feelings change, as identity does. i've half-jokingly referred to myself as "genderfluid but the genders are different types of dragons" because the specifics of how i want to present myself change but share some consistent features.

mainly i have two "forms" i like to present but they're both "me" and they're both "Mist." and the first one is just.... mostly flygon. i didn't have to do a lot of work there. the other one i just kind of... went in drawing without a plan aside from the vague "gender creature." sort of stream of consciousness design, adding in whatever felt Right. and that form is... well, it's harder to draw for me, so i don't use it as much online, but i can still feel it as Myself if i think about it.

in both cases though, drawing helped me figure it out - i started learning to draw because i wanted to make an image of flygon doing a silly pose, which slowly progressed into what it is now. with the other form i went into it with the specific intent of creating something more original that still resonated with me