sigh, feeling kinda depressed.
I'm getting blocked by people I like more and more and i don't know what I'm doing wrong. It's frustrating to know that i'm a piece of shit without knowing how to not be a piece of shit.
Like I 100% agree that people who blocked me do not owe me an explanation or justification. I get that if i wronged them they should not be forced to interact with me.
It's just that I already struggle with social interactions. That stuff makes me struggle more. I don't know what part of myself i need to snuff out, i don't know what part of myself i need to rebuild.
It's hard enough to improve your own personality as it is. Not even knowing what part of yourself is objectionable makes it that much harder.
EDIT: Also i really want to reiterate. I will not try to get in touch with them indirectly. I will not bother them, i will not harass them, i will not name them to anyone. They're entirely correct and right to block me for their own reasons. I'm not trying to get sympathy over being blocked. I deserve that, i'm sure. I will not diminish the harm i've done to these people.
