*with my mom. see the posts from yesterday for context. results under the cut
Mom
she is too smart and i am too bad at lying to truly slip anything past her. so she now knows i have been on hormones despite her best efforts to convince me otherwise. at one point today even comparing it to "it's like if you told me you were doing crack cocaine" because "it rewires your brain, i just want to protect your beautiful brain".
so um yeah not a great start. she did seem to reconsider her words and apologize when i told her more details about my dysphoria, which was good. and besides knowing the "right" terminology (kept referring to trans women as biological men), hormones were her only hangup. very respectful of social decisions and swears not to tell other family members. i was correct on my read that she loves me and respects my decision even if she didn't understand it.
Dad
Still no real read on him. He is the one who noticed the bra, and asked my mom about it, and she vaguely knew about my questioning already so told him to talk to me about it. I engineered a few opportunities for him and I to be alone together, in case he wanted to talk about it, but he never asked.
Mom is not sure he knows what a transgender is, and I am too chicken to ask him, and it does not seem like he will ask me, so we are at the same impasse as before, only now with Extra Mindgames.
despite the Extra Mindgames, I still had a great time talking to him about his special interests (we have the same flavor of autism but he doesn't recognize it as that), photography especially, and he even donated an "old" (read: last-gen) Canon digital camera for me to use for some architecture photography I had plans for.
overall I still have confidence he'll be loving & accepting since he and Mom are great parents, but yeah the uncertainty still keeps me in the closet around him.
it feels like i should be feeling more relief rn, but actually i feel exhausted i think. good to get part of it over with at least.
also also!! thank you again to everyone for all your support yesterday. i could not have been as confident as i was without y'all's help, y'all're the best <3
