Just a heads up, you will not hear from me for a good while. My life disintegrated when it got Thanos snapped around... 3am MST. I may never return, but I plan to return if I can help it.

I'm presently helping someone else bail from our current situation because they still have a life to live. I do not. I've known since Summer of 2020 that eventually my life would have to fit into a backpack, a messenger bag, and a trunk. Now is that time.

Abuse is a hell of a thing, particularly from parents. I've commented on parenting and heredity-based rearing practices indirectly, but allow me to put it bluntly:

No. You are not a good parent if you reject the Queerness of your kids.

My parents have many clinical features, one of them being psychotic anger. My father once waved a loaded handgun around while drunk after a literal 8 hour long argument my mother inflicted upon him. He is not a victim, but he is also rarely the aggressor. Hard not to root for the man when he tries and utterly fails to deescalate because he has Autism. Harder still to accept that his demeanor and rationale vaporizes after 9pm, when even minor unplanned surprises become interpreted as major intentional disasters.

I will be fighting proverbially for my life for a weekend or so, followed by more literally fighting for my life later this week as I race to accomplish everything I can do with a car on about 6 days of rental time. I can extend the time I have transportation but it is expensive and presently every single dollar will count.

Thank you for reading my shit. Thank you for entertaining me with commentary and critique.

Goodbye for now.

Hi all, thought I'd just say I've been busy. Since I moved at the end of July my life has been pretty busy and I've not always had time to jump on and write. I'm hoping I get more time to match my increasing clarity of thought (more on that later), but for now it's still sparse.

No why is this so long!? FACK. I wanted to do a 'quick' update.

it's a fantastic article from a variety of folks from in indie TTRPGs:

also honored that another quote from me was both pull-quoted from and used to close the article:

Every platform wants their walled garden, and the VC money that funded the existence of social media platforms that acted like a public is drying up as they realise maintaining what amounts to public infrastructure isn’t profitable,” Levine said. “we're basically just speedrunning the neoliberal enclosure of anything resembling a public commons, this time with digital spaces rather than physical ones. As a creator and a generalist that markets their work online—and in some ways, even just as a person—that’s terrifying.

anyway, the politics of venture capital and website aside: i'm always on one about community. community can be formed on online social networks, but it rarely is.

community is a dense graph. it is rarely incidental—tying everyone together so that each person knows and cares about each other person in it takes a lot of regular work is maintenance. community is hard and messy and difficult to maintain, but it has its own specific problems (and unique benefits) that are very different than that of the loose connections that vaguely connect different webs of people on social media. confusing the two leads to a lot of bad discourse.

Basically this forever, particularly the part about public infrastructure really makes me feel like there's a convergence of thought.

fursoña

Spanish

Etymology

Noun

1. online persona, usually in the form of an anthropomorphic animal