ok so the original post was about ai art and the people "making" it, but... this part of the post actually slapped me so fucking hard. i see myself in this (not wholly) and i don't like it. there's a million things that i think are extremely cool, rad, interesting etc. out there, yet i cannot see myself doing any of them. speedrunning. visual arts. writing (proper writing, not this "stringing-together-of-fancy-words" that i do). tabletop rpgs. hell, even getting involved in communities.
unlike the ai "artists", i don't want a shortcut. i want to feel like i've accomplished something (why else would i have thousands of hours played in osrs??) - but like them (at least according to the OP), i very much lack interest in a lot of things ._.
usually i'm fine with it, but other times it can feel absolutely crushing. to want to create and express myself, and not just consume... while also knowing that i have no interest in any specific means to do that. (there's also the fact that i feel like i rarely even know how to convey my thoughts and feelings in any form :v )
even though i may occasionally find brief inspiration in a subject and spend anything from a handful of days to a couple of weeks with it, in the end i always find myself winding back to gaming... (but i want to do something else for a change, damnit!!)
(also, it's not limited to just creative stuff either; i guess you could lump it all together as "stuff that's new to me"... but i think it might be more nuanced than that; one little caveat is that i'll gladly learn everything about something if i find it interesting or useful, but i guess it's the doing that i struggle with (hello? executive dysfunction??). either way, i feel like i'm missing out on a LOT, and i want to escape this dullness.)