on one hand, i'm just so sick of being treated as male and think a feminine identity would suit me so much better... and i feel that unless i am visibly "non-male", people WILL just assume/see me as one. in other words, i "should" transition to being female.
...but on the other hand, i'd honestly much rather just be a creature of some sort. so i don't think "female" really suits me either.
nor can i conceive of any other "specific" gender to suit me (literally, i feel like i don't know a damn thing about gender beyond "male/female/nonbinary"...) that said i do kinda vibe with agender, though i'm still wrapping my head around it. (i honestly don't even know how seriously i should even be think about "neogenders"(?) - maybe people are just having fun with words and vibes?)
"what about being a 'feminine creature'" see the thing about being "creature" is that to me it's a disconnect from humanity, human concepts and societal norms and expectations. so when it comes to gender, i kinda don't even want to think about it - i just want to be a creature!! but society doesn't like that, and it's not like i could just get up and leave society.
i just feel like i'd rather not be seen as any gender... not exactly as "agender" though, but as if the concept itself just didn't apply to me... (except, sometimes i'd like to express a little femininity)
