...kinda only now realizing how traumatizing that appointment may have been, actually. there's just... a lot of stuff that's kept on bothering me about it.
communication issues, still after everything. (that clinic's been the one and only place where it's been this fucking hard)
offhand remark about how i'm "not a woman".1
commenting on my neurodivergence like i wasn't there.
commending me for having notes for exact wordings...but also pointing out my reliance on them.
being asked several times if my notes are my own. (yes they FUCKING are!!!)
getting visibly anxious.
we ended on a high note, and i left there feeling hopeful, but just... fuck man. part of me still feels like they think i'm not all right in the head...
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context!! i'm sure they didn't mean it like that but holy fuck they could've been a lot more sensitive with the wording there